3 Years after and counting…
And now everything must be different... Just because I’m not there, at home…
Just because for me is Monday 11.13 A.m. and for you is Sunday 11.13 P.m.
Doesn’t mean anything… ANYTHING AT ALL…
Give one reason… Just one… Why it must be Different?
Why you want to hold on to this thoughts of you…
That you can only give me love with a hug or a kiss, or just a touch..
What happened to words? What happened to the language of our hearts? What’s wrong with just the intention of wanting to be together? Isn’t that love? Agree to do something or just spent time talking about us our feelings our future… Isn’t that a way to show love?
It makes me really sad to realize what is happening to you... I don’t understand why… I know a part of you came with me… but you still have to be the same or at least try to keep in touch with that part that flew away from you… that part that maybe few months before I knew I was coming here was missing…
It breaks my heart to know that you are sad, but honey I’m sad too and if your heart is crying mine too, so just come cry with me… don’t be embarrassed don’t be ashamed!! We will cry until there’s no tear and hold on into each other... I prefer cry with you… rather that cry in my bed were the pillow covers my sorrows and no one knows neither understand…
Only you can understand my situation... And I can understand yours... so please stop… Please just STOP… Because is hurting me… and changing the way I see you… and the circles begin… I feel you different distant, I ask you, you miss me, I miss you too, you treat me as I’m still there by you side… like we still have the beautiful Sundays Dinners…
And we just chat around in Skype... is not like that now... I treat you different for the way I’m feeling you… and you feel betrayed… lonely… Sad… Pissed Off…
Maybe because I left… maybe because we forgot how to talk… maybe because you haven’t heard my voice in you cell phone a long time ago..
Maybe all is my fault, because I didn’t ask for too many things at the beginning.. everything was so fast.. i remember that day at the airport.. I looked so quiet so calm.. I didn’t ask you how did you feel about it.. I was trying so hard to look chill out… that I forgot about you…
Maybe is my fault for not being romantic at all.. for specting everything to be the same…
Please Forgive me… if in one way or other I did something wrong… or just never realized how important are all the things you do to me and for me… Im deeply sorry… If somehow I pay more attention to some random thing than to you…
I just cant stop loving you… remember you have the 95% of my heart in your hands…
The 5% that is still here with me… wrote this words… I still have this thing blocking my throat… that’s why I couldn’t talk to you…
And please don’t say it is because of this day.. just don’t.. you know for us have some other special meaning.. but is not just for today.. I have been feeling this since a few months…
Maybe im expecting too much of you.. Im sorry if I ask for too many things… is just that for me your not just a random guy who study a lot likes anime and videogames… for me you are a super hero that likes to eat a lot of mandarins and Chinese fried chicken… The Super Hero that always do something to make me happy, that is always in my mind…
Que mas puedo yo sentir… lo que mas extraño..
Tu cuando hablo… Tu cuando Sueño….
Kurochan+Midori*Infinto= Felicidad Absoluta
Thats our ecuation and we need to work hard for it… and also try to put it more mathematical realistic (Yeah me inventing new words )
Wo Ai Ni
Sincerely Yours,
My Feelings.
